Love is the easiest and the hardest thing I've had to comprehend in my life.
On one hand, I find it easier than ever to love someone in the context of the Golden Rule. It's easier for me to love someone as Christ loved someone. The feeling of giving and recieving love has been very rewarding for me.
There's also been the other part of love-that is, searching for, finding, and enjoying a romantic relationship. That's been really hard.
First of all, there's this thing called Asperger's Syndrome that I have, as well as all the stigmas that come along with it (limited social skills, hardcore quirkiness, etc.) I've also had to go through years of un-learning weird behaviors and the player-type mentality that I learned at Methodist. Heck, I don't think I would have been a good boyfriend to anyone at any period of my life until the light went on this summer.
And there's also the attraction factor. In my past life I would only go after people that I had a physical attraction to. I didn't really know what I wanted in a partner. Today I tend to seek believers that are low-maintence, really into some form of social justice, and artistic in some way. I haven't found her yet. :(
I also tend to face a lot of competition for some of the girls I pursue. I guess I would be dropping hints on my type here, but I think I wouldn't be single right now if I dated some of the people that society tells me to date. I am somehow wired this way, and I am clueless why.
Don't even get me started on the financial deal. Love is..love.
I'm going to continue later.
On one hand, I find it easier than ever to love someone in the context of the Golden Rule. It's easier for me to love someone as Christ loved someone. The feeling of giving and recieving love has been very rewarding for me.
There's also been the other part of love-that is, searching for, finding, and enjoying a romantic relationship. That's been really hard.
First of all, there's this thing called Asperger's Syndrome that I have, as well as all the stigmas that come along with it (limited social skills, hardcore quirkiness, etc.) I've also had to go through years of un-learning weird behaviors and the player-type mentality that I learned at Methodist. Heck, I don't think I would have been a good boyfriend to anyone at any period of my life until the light went on this summer.
And there's also the attraction factor. In my past life I would only go after people that I had a physical attraction to. I didn't really know what I wanted in a partner. Today I tend to seek believers that are low-maintence, really into some form of social justice, and artistic in some way. I haven't found her yet. :(
I also tend to face a lot of competition for some of the girls I pursue. I guess I would be dropping hints on my type here, but I think I wouldn't be single right now if I dated some of the people that society tells me to date. I am somehow wired this way, and I am clueless why.
Don't even get me started on the financial deal. Love is..love.
I'm going to continue later.
